I refuse to be bored

I'm discovering inner empowerment. Thus i cannot and WILL NOT be one who will succumb to boredom this time around- no matter how incredibly depressed i am at home, because GET THIS- MY PARENTS WON'T LET ME GO OUT BECAUSE I HAVE A'LEVELS TO SIT FOR IN 10 MONTHS TIME. So i have come to accept my fate. But i did manage to sneak out and satisfy my desire and hunger to see other people and buy things just yesterday though.

So anyway, everytime i think evil thoughts towards my parents-the ones who deprive me of holidays greatest joys (namely Abdar Rahmaan, end-of-year sales, meet ups with long lost gfs who just sat for their A'levels, cash etc etc), I tell myself this;

I am still young and pretty enough, there is no need to feel depressed.

I am
vibrant in my uniqueness and I accept my body and everything i put inside it...

I
am not going to have plastic surgery to re-construct any part of my body (even
though now Najmah seems to have much nicer boobs) and it is okay to stay at home while everybody else is out having fun... it is okay, because i am an obedient
girl who listens to my parents.

I will not defy!

Okay, i think you get the idea. So there, i am reduced to delusionalizing and hypnotizing myself but whatever; I AM NOT BORED :D Oh and also because i read this book; THREE WISHES by Liane Moriarty.

It's generally about three women, who are triplets. It explores their relationship with each other, family ties as well as their psychology. For the first time in ages, i didn't want to turn to the last page to find out if my assumptions of the ending is correct, because even if i did, i wouldn't be able to understand because i've missed some crucial bit of information in the center of the story. It's wonderful really, because the characters are so well formed and just so real.

I cried. Yes many many times. Like as if i was betrayed and duped and wasn't going to Paris with my husband because he decided that he loves some long legged bimbo with nice boobs (see how important boobs are) leaving ME to recuperate from my miscarriage all ALONE. OMG. Oh you all must so read this. The way she decribes Cat's emotions, so raw and so real and so unnervingly accurate to the point that you can really feel the pain and torture she went through. I think my heart really broke and sobbed and totally and completely went out to her. It's the first i got my heart broken, btw and it was by some fictional character. Way to go Nas! Ok, i'm digressing.

And the way her sisters came to her rescue. OMG, just so fucking touching. And in between the author inserts stories of the triplets when they were young- the most amazing thing is it's from an outsider's point of view, someone outside, it cld be a guy at the bar, a woman sun tanning, anybody who observed them from a distance, re-called the impact the sight of these triplets and their activities had on them. It's really unique, the way she pieces the story up together. It's not just about one character, you see, it's about the whole Kettle family.

Ultimately, she made me believe the strength these 3 characters had, to pull through. It's a story about family dynamics, women and ultimately, a big-hearted valentine to sisters all over the world.

Ambition makes all the difference in novels. That's what i think anyway.