Photo credits to FarahZee* (the one in white and our favourite Alicia Keys for the day). Omg, I so wasn't dressed right. I looked like their maid, but no matter because it was a happy occasion, all in all :)
How can one Saturday be so many things at once.
I was:
Annoyed, genuinely happy, impressed, amused, disgusted, ashamed (to be a Millennian), suprised, angry, hungry, upset, tired, panicking (while i sat through Transcendence, watching their performances and then worrying about the pile of stuff i've yet to learn) awed... nevergoodenoughforyou.
and lastly, i just felt as lousy as trash. Even trash's more useful cause at least it's recyclable.
Farahzee*, you made the start of the show full of promise! Yay! I'm glad i saw you sing live:) It made today worth it.
I'm so tired of running and thinking that i can finally reach you again somehow, someday. This distance would just keep accumulating and expanding, pushing us even further apart, leaving just some cold empty space between us. Sometimes i wonder if it'll be an easier situation if one of us existed no longer. I guess not. I just felt completely showed-up today. I can't believe he looked happier and better than i've ever seen him before. And i might as well have been a trapped animal in surburbia, in the midst of happy, smiling people.
& the only bright spark in my days right now keeps blinking and shining some light for me occasionally, at odd intervals, before going off, to do better things. Besides, i can't be expecting anything from this... perhaps just for some harmless injection of "wide-smile serum" before i retire back to my incomplete essays, my notes and everthing else that's unpleasant and mundane.
OH YES, ONE GOOD THING HAPPENED!
I've found my pencil box! My sister brought it to school without telling me. Doink doink. This, i believe, represents hope.
How can one Saturday be so many things at once.
I was:
Annoyed, genuinely happy, impressed, amused, disgusted, ashamed (to be a Millennian), suprised, angry, hungry, upset, tired, panicking (while i sat through Transcendence, watching their performances and then worrying about the pile of stuff i've yet to learn) awed... nevergoodenoughforyou.
and lastly, i just felt as lousy as trash. Even trash's more useful cause at least it's recyclable.
Farahzee*, you made the start of the show full of promise! Yay! I'm glad i saw you sing live:) It made today worth it.
I'm so tired of running and thinking that i can finally reach you again somehow, someday. This distance would just keep accumulating and expanding, pushing us even further apart, leaving just some cold empty space between us. Sometimes i wonder if it'll be an easier situation if one of us existed no longer. I guess not. I just felt completely showed-up today. I can't believe he looked happier and better than i've ever seen him before. And i might as well have been a trapped animal in surburbia, in the midst of happy, smiling people.
& the only bright spark in my days right now keeps blinking and shining some light for me occasionally, at odd intervals, before going off, to do better things. Besides, i can't be expecting anything from this... perhaps just for some harmless injection of "wide-smile serum" before i retire back to my incomplete essays, my notes and everthing else that's unpleasant and mundane.
OH YES, ONE GOOD THING HAPPENED!
I've found my pencil box! My sister brought it to school without telling me. Doink doink. This, i believe, represents hope.
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