Was strangely calm. I love and thank my father deep deep for sending me that short few hundred meters to school. He has no idea how calming the car-ride effect had on me. I kept praying, hoping that He won't abandon me in spite of how horrible I've been. Sometimes when it's almost the end, faith is all you have left to hold on to. Plus, this first paper ever felt like the biggest gamble I've ever had to take.
During the paper:
"FUCK! IT'S THE ASIAN FINANCIAL CRISIS AND ASEAN!!!!"
a few seconds later....
"omg omg omg DECOLONIZATION." (i didn't study this at all)
The moment our kerek invigilator (i hate her sia, she frowned at me everytime i yawned and looked up from my writing paper) said pens down:
Why you screwing
With my head?
I don't think
You understand...
...Because I recognise
I've heard it all before
And I-E-I-E-I
Think of all the time
That I've wasted.
Britney's "Lonely" was ringing in my head over and over again.
I felt like I gave the paper my all, I gave it my best shot, in the only way I know how to. I've never passed this component EVER before so I really don't know what to expect. Thank God there's still another component, the International history part. Perhaps there's still a chance?------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
The worst is over :) I love Yanni. Haha, random. Thanks for calling me & making me laugh after i tripped over the cord trying to get to you!
Oh, I had an epiphany during my SEA History paper. It's a bit redundant but sitting there made me realise that what I really REALLY want to do for the rest of my life is to WRITE. I want to write things that people would read. I want to be that person who gives different viewpoints- I want people to go "aaah... i never thought of that!" after reading what I have to say.
I can go dream on la, since who wants somebody who can't even handle History after 3 fecking years right.
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