Reflections and final reservations.

I honestly thought I was much stronger than this.
More determined, with you know,
at least a hint of preserverance, perhaps?
Today really hit home,
sometime during the rainy late afternoon,
in the midst of Mdm Lee's lit period (yes, of all periods).
It dawned upon me that I really haven't much time left
and the critical readings cannot wait any longer!
They need to be critically tackled and I need to be discerning with information.
KING LEAR IS COMPLEX (so is Othello and Pride & Prejudice)
A's in its entiety simply cannot be consolidated within a matter of few days!
I can't keep running away, can I?
And if i don't do this and do this well-
I'll have nothing to show for the past three years here.
And what am I gonna do after A's?
School is all I've ever known, ever did, ever been (ignore the irony)!
It's like charting into never before ventured territory.
It's terrifying on so many different levels.
Can I still claim to be "studying" one year from now?

I've been a huge bawling baby this year. Sheesh.
Sorry y'all- to the TGs, especially, who had to
suffer plenty of my running nose antics and all.
Let's save the tears for grad ceremony (if we turn up)?
And hopefully happy, relieved, crystal droplets
sometime in March next year (:
We've had our share of drama, prose and poetry combined
but I sure had the most colourful & vibrant final
year at MI, ever, thanks to you girls.

It wouldn't have been 2008 without them.

Okay, all the best, yeah.
Try not to give up (or break down).
Heh. It feels stupid, i swear.