chart it out, so i can at least try get there.

I can't believe how that epiphany I had during my SEA History paper, on the 31st of November - is probably about to shape the rest of my life.

I've always known how much I love writing and that is where I want to be, who I need to be. A storyteller! But since I can't write super long page turning novels. I think i'll get bored halfway and leave my story unfinished, with the protagonist stuck at counting calories. So, I thought I'd try out journalism.

After about a month with the magazine i'm interning at, (give or take 30 approved articles, minus 2 weeks of Xmas break in Dec) I think I've found what I want to do. I wanna report, and write and submit and see it published. Now, getting something published is just the first step. I want to get my ideas published - an original article fuelled by my own chosen subject! That'll be awesome.

Anyway, here's what I think I'm gonna be working towards;

1) Pitch an idea to my editor and try convince her to let me write more than the Personal Growth column, our HR blog and all the white papers... maybe she'll let me write a story for the magazine itself. After all, I already get original stories for the bulletin right? Hmmm. Maybe not yet ah... I don't think I'm ready to handle any kind of HR-related feature.

2) I probably need a general degree at least, before I can proceed (this one will be a major obstacle)

3) Then I'm gonna try out Reader's Digest (as a coffee maker also can, then inch my way to the top and displace the editor.. waaaah!) I think I'd be awesome for all those features on people. I love people (ok, debateable) and I know I can probably make other people want to read about whichever person I'm gonna feature.

4) Then I'm gonna dream big and maybe switch to ______ magazine (i'm not writing it here cause you might laugh at me) after much experience. It's ok, must dream big.

5) Try out at a melayu newspaper (Mampos! Cikgu akan tertawa terbahak-bahak. Karangan tidak pernah dihantar. Lebih dari setahun telah berlalu dan ia masih belum dihabiskan lagi). For a month ah, can?

6) Then when I retire, I'm gonna write childrens' books - they are actually the hardest to write for, i believe, because you want to engage them like your life depended on it.

7) Finally, I'm gonna write a song :) Haha, with lyrics that can beat Mraz's! hoho. Just the lyrics, I can't write music for nuts.

8) Oh not forgetting - spend a whole lot of time...

...with my long neglected husb. So to my future hubby, real life will begin at 60, for us! We'll do all the leisurely stuff like walking by the beach hand in hand and not really knowing where our kids are when we're 80, cause we will have alzheimer's (unless we're like mighty LKY, alert and mentally sound still)! Ha ha. If i even have one. Either way, I think i'll be kept occupied, no?

And I think that's it, for now. Since I have some form of dream/plan, I know there's something worth working towards. If I want something bad enough... I'll get it. I know I will. So far, my wants have yet to fail me... tira lira liraa. Hahaha

Wish me luck okay! Cause I'm pretty sure I screwed up my A's like shittifiediatchediggiefuckyhelloomeemaaaaaahh!!! Still, i'm sure that there's a way out of every shithole I've happily fallen into.

I don't wanna wait before, this dream is over. I'm gonna make it mine. God-willing, of course (: