shagged

my friday was a whole new experience.

the press conference, on the whole was an interesting one. still, i wish xieli didn't leave me alone, to fend for myself amongst the big shots. well well, you learn something new each day and today, i learnt a lot!

networking is such a chore. i suck at it! and CEOs can be rather... improper? i got asked out for drinks a coupla times, by dirty, rich, busy old men. mmmmkay. some of them aren't that old. and are actually quite gorgeous (esp the indian/pan-asian/UAE ones) in that experienced way that i dig so much. i thought it was a common occurance amongst businesses and the press. my editor freaked and asked me to dish out details. hahaha. these are people who run apac developments man. they're pretty scandalous! maybe i shd dish out dirt abt them and do some blackmailing. heck, i wouldn't stand a chance - their battalion of lawyers would be all over me (not that way la!)

Which makes me wonder... do i really look like the kind who wld sleep my way to the top? maybe i just look naive and silly(which i am! i have never worked before). i'd be grateful to get any kinda sleeping done. ha. *dry sarcastic laugh* I stay awake at night just staring at walls. and i dont even go online since i have this irrational fear of having sthg climb out of my lappy's screen; like in that japanese movie, the ring, yanoe?

Today, i caught myself doodling his name. with hearts in between each letter. then i kicked myself. i can be so so so so goddamn bloody stupid. it will never work out, not in a million years (maybe in a million dollars?) i keep wanting to marry everybody these days. must be the money talks man. whisper those figures in my ears... and i'll give you wilder than your wildest fantasy. kidding!

i can't wait for the 21st.