Thursday, August 13, 2009

I just feel like blogging.

I think it really sucks when you can never be friends again with someone you used to love a whole lot. Who knew you better then them, right? For that period of time, at least. They'd be the first person you'd tell when you had a shitty day and the last person to stay & comfort you till you feel all better again.

And sometimes you feel like reaching out, yet knowing all the while it won't work out... but still tried anyway... only to fail and feel rejected all over again. It gets to me.

I still miss A sometimes. I don't think it's because I haven't moved on. It's a whole lot of dissatisfaction with how things between us had to turn out. It would be a lot more pleasant if we can be friends, if our efforts had actually produced something worthwhile, rather than nothing at all.


DAH HABIS.

11 comments:

J. Jamali said...

alamak. chill ah babe!

broccolee said...

Aiya we have eilena's class on Monday! I is very very sad. I only like shaw hong :(

J. Jamali said...

eileena is ok what... she's a bit stern but nice lady i think. the one i dont like is jeffery.

Unknown said...

There's no future in nostalgia;
Only mutations and repetition
Existent in the wombs of consciousness
Burst asunder at the crack of the hour
There is no future in nostalgia.

:)

broccolee said...

Do you know... that both of you are called "Jay"? Haha. Jay, sweetie, meet Jay man... the one i don't really know!

LOL. Say HI, cepat!

Anw, jayman, I like the short poem. Is that what it is?

And Jay, ok laa... maybe eilena is nice. & you cannot be evil and hate boring people.

Unknown said...

Hi!! *waves* ;) Its just a play of words, what i'd refer to it as.. I certainly found it useful to galvanise myself out of disillusionment..

J. Jamali said...

right so 2 jays isn't that bad... from the look of it... both of us are awesome!

jayman... how's it going. you can call me jay-bulous.

Unknown said...

Not very well actually. Piles of articles to read and topics to research on. In a word: s***ty.. Haha..Nice to meet you mate! How's life treating u?

Jay

J. Jamali said...

oh life's been fab. not too bad with school though. loving all the lil adventures we get into everyday.

you doing ok there? sounds like someone need a major drink or something!

jaybulous

broccolee said...

I'm so glad that the jayss are getting along so well :)

Hang in there with the work load, jayman. You signed up for it, so a slave to it you shall be!

Unknown said...

Jaybulous: Haha.. I need a major vacation.. Oh Nas, aren't we all slaves in this very contradictory social life? In your case, you're doing something exciting; in mine, its disillusioning.. ;)

J