I think National Day sucks.
Not because I don't love Singapore. I love our transport system. I love our dependable shopping malls. The way we celebrate it is just so duhhh. The parade is redundant. So are the fireworks. The whole thing made me unbelievably sad. Was actually at Marina Square, City Hall area today, for the first time, on August 9th. I hate the bloody happy merry makers in red and white, congesting up every square inch of the place. Urgh. Like seriously, there isn't a need to be so happy. I felt so strangled by the merry atmosphere okay. I actually missed the weekday humdrum and mundane office-home commute. Am gonna bask in that starting Tuesday. Yippie. I'm a kill joy.
Felt like I was mourning Sg's passing youth, which is even more retarded because a nation like ours should be congratulated (and is celebrated) for the record amount of time we took to economically prosper. We got filthy rich in 3 generations, baby. No mean feat, LKY!
But you know, it's like growing hair at all the weird places, getting your period yet still no boobies... You get it? Like we're only economically developed. We have no identity (no clear positive one, at least).
We're still very backward in many aspects.
Like, we have so many signs saying "give up seat to elderly" or "do not litter"... not because our society advocates paternalism but because we need to be told what to do! We can't even be trusted to throw Yoe's Chrysanthemum cartons in the bin, so you tell me, how to deal with the real "sampah masyarakat" (hardcore social trash/ guttersnipes)?
And our so called racial harmony thrives on very superficial waters. If you're a chinese boy, and you bring home a malay/muslim girl to wed (not to fondle around on your bed hor) bet your mom would flip. Similarly, I would have a lot of problems if my sister expressed interest in a bangladeshi worker. If it's my maid then nevermind, you see, because that is considered a norm.
See what I mean? I hate myself for thinking like this. It's one huge imperfection in the way that we've been conditioned, isn't it?
"Sure, be friends with all, try dating a guy/girl out of your own ethnic group but when you wanna settle down and give me grandchildren, I want them to be the same colour as your vagina, pray five times a day, fast during Ramadhan and wear the tudung, you understand??" Okay let me clarify, my parents didn't say that.
To Singapore, Happy Birthday. I don't know how old you are this year because I'm an idiot. I also don't know the new National Day song for 09' because I haven't been to school, so no song sheet, no ND concert. I know that Electrico's a local band, is that good enough? I also like that there's gonna be a third Sg Idol. Know what I love most? The fact that our goverment is deemed incorruptible. Or maybe I say so because I know shit about politics? Whatever.
I hate all you hand-holding, red-wearing, happy parade goers. I hate you more if you're an NTU/NUS student. Or if you come from any elite JC. Ok that's it. Oh I must add one more thing, I hate you most if you're the cause of my current state of misery but yet still have the audacity to be so much happier than I ever could be today, now and forever.
Wah drama sial. Truth be told, I cannot pin point why I'm perpetually miserable. When you're miserable, happy couples just tend to piss the shit out of you. Did I say happy couples? Make that people - more general.
Cannot believe that I ranted like I actually cared. Cared enought to type a super lenghty post, at that!
3 comments:
I think the picture's not as rosy as you imagined it to be. Sure, the status of being a student in a local uni carries the connotation of prestige, but the reality of it speaks otherwise.
I think its great that ure in NAFA, doing a degree that normal Singaporeans (under the hegemonic influence of the State ideology of success= being good in science and math) would consider as "risky". Comparatively speaking, grads form local U find it hard to secure employment. All this mambo-jumbo about the global experience makes the degree depreciate in value. Plus, you really wouldnt wana know of the competition among students. All vying for good GPAs, Dean's List, Uni Scholars' Programme and what-have-you-nots..
jay
whoaa you really can type a lot uh, on this issue?
I'm just pissed bec they didnt even wanna gimme an interview slot - sthg which i think my grades at least deserve. I mean, people with worse grades managed to secure an interview. So yeah.
I'm studying at Lasalle, btw. And yeah.. I think it's a risk to be doing this degree but hey, at least i wont hafta compete with the local uni students in the art industry, since it's gonna be our specialty after all :)
LaSalle? I thought it was NAFA.. Sorry.. ;) In any case,the system of meritocracy juxtaposes itself with the very individuals that keeps it going.. I mean, some of these dimwits (pardon me, but the year 1s in NTU are really getting on my nerves, hogging comps and canteens..) are good performers..
Perhaps all the s**** they wrote in the essay section of the application form worked to their advantage.. Trust me, when it comes to bending the truth, Arts students do it best.. ;)
Well, you know, its not a universal truth that success is analogous to getting a degree.. I may sound hypocritical, but believe me, once u have a transcendental view of the social system,u'll realise how flawed it is.. And unfortunately, these embodied and institutionalised systems are inescapable structures that we are trapped in..
Keep on writing good stuff, I'd love to read more.. Just for the record, I personally feel GP is bull****.. ;)
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