Is it because I don't believe in them? Or is it because it wasn't even mine to begin with? Was it because I was forced to adopt them... and then I've suddenly realised that heck, I don't really care for such things?
Maybe I need to sit down and think again, and re-assert the things I believe in... or just try have a little more faith.
One thing's for sure; I am done criticising myself. I am done putting myself down. I am done blaming.
I'm not ugly. I'm not gorgeous.
I'm not skinny. I'm not obese.
I'm not evil. I'm no saint.
I'm not stupid. I'm not smart.
I'm not patient. I'm not unreasonable.
I'm not easily likable. I'm not hated.
So basically, I'm just average. And tonight, there's really nothing wrong with that; as long as I'm trying my best to be a better person, better daughter, better muslim (okay, still a long way to go) every single day.
At this point, I can say that I am happy. I feel like I have a reason to wake up to every morning (even if it is for the sake of my attendance). And there's my classmates, who will always make every trip to school worth it. And the lessons are just awesomee... even if I freak out about the workload yet never do anything till the last minute.
Life's buzzing with activities and I've stopped obsessing about the things that used to keep me awake at night. Wheeee. With upcoming projects, articles and the occasional performances to catch... I just hope I'll remain forever enthusiatic about it all.
I'm so excited about this coming Friday.
I'll settle my principles another day, then?
P/S: I had "gong gong" (escargot of the sea, hahahahah) toooday! Thank you Sophie!
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