It was one of those days where everything was just wrongier than wrong could have ever been.

My editor was clearly annoyed with my half-hearted submissions & I couldn't be bothered to put together an article worthy for anyone at all to read. Lunch made me sick and the after effects made me bloated, causing my face to look fattier than fat could have ever looked on me through that reflection on my screen.

On top of that, I just received very bad news from home and I didn't know how to react to such... news. I find it troubling but yet I didn't care.

So I spent the rest of the day surfing the net and wondering what to do about the news.

Luckily for me, I was dating a certain person... at that time, who knew what to do.

He appeared at the train station unannouced right after I clocked off and I remembered thinking; "Geez... no needta get so caring, I know how to handle my own shit... thanks."

Don't get me wrong. I was incredibly pleased to see his smiling face & fishball head. And so, he accompanied me all the way home, on the train (which was no mean feat considering that we lived at opposite ends of Singapore). We talked about everything and it was so nice not to be alone with my mean mean self.

Me, being the ingrate couldn't help but ask, "Why didn't you drive?"

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Now, I remember this bec it showed me how much he cared. But I also remember this because it deeply contrasted to whatever that happened next. And I wondered if his feelings towards me held any significance at all after that.

And after that, I kept on wondering if it's going to be like this for me all the time after him. My defense mechanism made me him instead. This did not go well, I assure you.

I'm glad you've found someone you'd want to share your life with.

It's easy, so easy to fall in love. Everyone should really learn how to continue loving and just frikin stay in that state of... "love". We cannot keep waking up one fine day, to this unsuspecting *ping in our heads which just throws everything off balance, changing everything.

E v e r y t h i n g .