Today, I got smirked at by this hefty blimp of a minah simply because I was only observing the way her boyfriend (a very good-looking and smells like heaven- type of guy) was shamelessly planting sweet little kisses on her forhead. As much as it may come across as unbelievable; I really was not thinking of evil thoughts, whatsoever. In fact, I was merely just observing; admittedly perhaps a tad wistfully. & I may come across as overly sensitive but I could have sworn that she gave me the “hah-you’re-going-home-alone-you-sad-cow-so-that-makes-me-better-than-you” look. She looked at me for a good 3 seconds and me, in my blank state simply stared back, in what I really hope was an expressionless gaze. I can't be bothered with all the "unfairness" in the world anymore. Justice will be served only when people like Syahira get rammed by a truck and survives, crippled and bald, i swear. Ooops, i've mentioned names. So kill me.
It has been a month. I have to say, this must have been the longest month, ever. My mind must have careened and spun more than a dozen times each week. And every time that happens, I told myself, with great resolve that it’ll be the last time. Of course, the subconscious mind just refuses to listen. And so I find myself back in a rut, time and time again. Maybe i deserve this for being so judgemental and bitter.
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