In the midst of turning

Hey lola.

Guess I'll be welcoming tomorrow with a terrible, throbbing headache.
I haven't felt pretty in so long... Feeling like so goddamn old and
haggard now. I just wanna sleep.

And I love my family alot. They drive me crazy but I drive them
crazier. They love me too! No strings attached :) I cannot imagine
life without my sisters! And I miss my opah very much. I haven't had
time to pop in and visit her... Since I started running around, with
school and my 3 jobs. It's been hectic and crazy lately.

I'm just hoping that I won't look so ugly tomorrow. That will suck. I
found my first ever white hair... At the MCYS award ceremony while
studying my wrinkles under the museum's harsh lighting. Guess maybe
events isn't for me after all! It's working too hard, for too little.
Hmmm. My auntie would say that we all have to start somewhere but is
it necessary to begin all the way at the bottom? Nyeh.

I've still got lots to learn. I just wanna write, honestly. That is
one thing that hasn't changed. Yes, even when I open my twenty year
old eyelids tomorrow morning, God willing, of course.

Sent from my iPod, Lola Smokah