It's not that I am not bothered. I chose not to be bothered. It shifts the balance of control in my direction. If I can control what I feel, I can control everything else.
Besides, it's much easier to let it not bother me because to show how much potential it has to break me is detrimental to my very existance. It's not a mind game. It's a personal challenge.
What is it I'm after, really? Control? Or simply approval? There's such a fine line between the two.
One thing's for sure. I'd rather not care, than care too much.
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