Saturday, April 17, 2010

I thought we're already in the month of May

I've been recording stuff in May's columns. Not good. I've mentally skipped the month of April and jumped right into May.

Haven't been updating as regularly either. Half of April's gone and I've only posted two entries. This is very rare. I used to blog almost daily. Ha. Must be the age.

Been keeping myself busy with a whole range of new projects, on top of school work and my freelancing. Get this: I'VE OFFERED TO VOLUNTEER MY TIME AND WEEKENDS. With A Seed: A Series of Underground Art. It's very process oriented, as I was told, many many times. I think I'm gonna really enjoy, just watching how people work. And working alongside my brilliant classmates, of course!

Applied for internships too. I think I want my internship to feel right, this time. First, I need to sort out what I want to learn. And more importantly, how badly I want to learn these things. Julie says we should work for free. I am seriously considering that. I need feel concrete passion about something. Maybe some people just don't have a natural affinity toward something. Maybe my passion will be a calculated decision. Or maybe I'll just con myself into feeling passionate about something. Why not?

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All I know is that, I cannot wait to see this particular boy tomorrow (and express how passionate i am about him, with what little I have left in my stampeded soul) and just hope that... I'll allow myself to be a dead fish; just go with the flow. I refuse to be the one dying in the midst flow. If I'm going with the flow, I better be already dead.

I really cannot wait to see him.

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