Honestly do not think i've been this unhappy before.

It's not that I don't want to live anymore. I just don't know how to.

I feel relentlessly tired all the time. Sometimes I just giggle at random things to like, test it out, see how it sounds. I wouldn't wanna misplace my giggles. Not that I think it sounds good or anything like that... giggling, to me, is pretty much the closest I can get to feeling carefree.